energy

"Fears keep things from happening; they don't make them happen. Fears keep you from good things." (9/19/95 - R#1)

"If bad congregates too much in one entity, it self-destructs--but only after great suffering. So-called evil is an unstable entity, afraid of its own destruction so bad is intensified--but it ultimately destroys itself. The only stable state for entities is loving." (10/2/95 - R#2)

"Evil does not pre-exist. It is the by-product of the accumulation of bad feelings: fear, doubt, shame, other. Any one alone is not evil; one is a point for learning and growth. People live with these bad feelings all the time. No big whoop. But when they cluster, the energy increases--like black holes. Eventually, they get so strong they can suck the good into their energy. Evil is a cluster of bad feelings energized by co-opted good. You all know that. You say, 'He had good intentions' as an excuse when bad things occur.

"Hitler rose to power through his sick views and the cooperation of good people. He created the evil design, but it took the energy taken from good to make it realised. Being good isn't enough. Choosing the direction of life is the important thing. Good that is not focused serves to energize evil.

"If all people were intentional about their good, evil could not be empowered. Evil is more the construction of good left unfocused than of the clustered bad. Without the energy of good the bad would soon self-destruct--like a gang of bad guys. Without external forces the gang will fight each other and destroy itself. Gangs are unstable. Evil is, too. It takes enormous energy to create stability. Bad does not have the sustaining energy to do that. It needs external energy." (10/3/95 - R#3)

"You will die from anger if you let it rule. You can be alive but dead when anger and hate fill you. You give your energy over to bad things, you can't heal. So seek justice but not revenge.

"Now as to world peace: it's the same. Focus on anger and hate and die, but focus on life and live. Stop looking for answers and start feeling alive, and all the world's problems can be solved... or more likely the problems will fade. If people knew more about building windows and bridges, not walls, life could be better." (10/16/95 - R#4)

"Part of a person's development is learning how to assemble and use one's energy. That's why the old souls seem to do everything with little effort. They know the energies they have and how to best use them. Wisdom is more about energy than about knowledge. That's why some old people seem so wise. They know how to focus their energy on the important stuff--don't sweat the small crap, and I don't mean details. I mean stuff like jealousy, envy, perfection, salvation, image, etc. They do worry about details, but details of big stuff like understanding, harmony, justice, mercy, love, etc.

"In more evolved people, the ratio of energy used to control energy used is much smaller--all falling to near zero in the great souls. That's why people always talk of their great energy, because so little goes for overhead. In fact, the great ones are always described in energy terms: lights, sound, fire, etc. The people know great energy when they experience it. On the other hand we have black holes. They take in more than they give off.

"Some groups suck the same way black holes do, and it takes more energy than one person can give to meet their needs. Some families, groups, a country like Israel, always need outside energy. Now, France gives back more than you give in; Italy, too. The United States is so-so. Boston and New York City give the most.

"There is more good energy in the world, but bad is strong. A person from Nebraska can suck a lot of New York City's good in one minute. They get mugged all the time because they attract bad to them. But they don't know they are bad, so they think good people are getting mugged... like Brits in Paris attract the worst French." (10/17/95 - R#5)

"A spiritual vampire stays alive by feeding off others. Vampire stories are not about death, but about living off the living but being spiritually dead. It seems fascinating for awhile to think of being dead--that is, beyond all pain and care--and still have energy and power. Adolescents struggle with that. Being a teen is tough, and we want to avoid the pain but have the power. Surprise! The only real power comes through living through the pain, and the only real energy is what you find in your aloneness. What you find then can energize all your moments and, with others of like experience, you can build great things. If you try to connect otherwise, either you will suck energy from others or they from you... or you all will seek others to deplete. Hate groups are people who all need energy from others.

"Think about this: a black is threatened by the KKK. He has to use his energy to deal with it and the KKK gets the energy, and he has that much less to use in his life. Oppressed groups are often seen as lazy or lacking drive, but it is really that the oppressors are taking so much energy. Their wills are willing but the energy is gone. And sometimes the energy they do have gets bundled up in violence because they don't have the extra energy for control.

"Now, the Jews were different. They were oppressed but they figured out how to suck energy from the oppressors. The story of Moses: it's not about God, it's about how the people could learn to whine and be annoying and get the energy they need. Israel shows how to do it. Right now they are sucking the energy of the Arabs, and they still can look like oppressed victims. Best thing would be for everyone to stop oppressing them and stop helping them. If they were not victims they would not know what to do.

"You see it's all about energy. No wonder we who sense this hate that Bunny. Love and energy are ultimately the same when they are genuine." (10/26/95 - R#6)

"Wearing bright colors can open your life--attract new energy. They call black 'conservative' but what it does is conserve and contain energy, while bright colors attract and emit all sorts of energy. It's time for a little energy in your lives." (11/2/95 - R#7)

"Anger arises when we feel powerless and we seek some energy. And if the other person does not respond, the angry one gets even angrier--feeling even more powerless. Anger uses energy in an attempt to get energy, but if none is forthcoming there is a bigger deficit. So the angry person keeps looking for a source. You hate your boss so you kick the dog. It works, but in negative ways because that energy is never yours. It does not ultimately fulfill the need. Only you can create the energy you need--not others, not God, not anything. And only you can prevent forest fires.

"Angry people just get angrier. Real power is generated within yourself by what you do and feel and think and dream and dare. We are generators. We are the creators of our physical energies. We take in and transform the energy to our use. So why not the same with spiritual energy?" (12/10/95 - R#8)

"Bound up, suffocating, that's what asthma is symptomatic of for some; fear for others. They're afraid of breathing, so they stop. More asthma these days means more fearful, uptight people. Slum dwellers--especially blacks--have a higher rate, but not for environmental reasons. It is just their fear levels. They are fearful, or their parents are." (2/9/96 - R#9)

"The natural state of being is trust. Babies--those cute little things--begin by trusting. They have to experience otherwise or else they just trust. Loss does not destroy trust, betrayal does. In Tarzan, he trusts until, as a man, the British teach him to mistrust.

"Erikson was half right. There are tensions between things like faith and doubt, etc., but the natural state is the positive and people have to unlearn that. Left alone people are good, with support they're even better; but with the opposite they can go bad. The propensity of the universe is towards goodness and understanding. Remember, when you see a person for whom goodness is not natural that entity will not be sustained as a spiritual continuity.

"So to trust yourself is natural, and if you don't you have experienced something to keep you from that. All the self-esteem workshops don't work unless you get to understand why you don't have esteem--what have you experienced and how can you get beyond it. It is not a constructive activity, but a cleansing one." (6/1/96 - R#10)

"Now about fear. It is not a barrier, but it can be an annoying companion. But ultimately what is real shows through fear and pain.

"It's not what you do to avoid it but what you have to live through it; and the most fearful people are those who either don't learn or don't remember. And people with no fear are not people of faith; they are usually without faith, too. And people who are filled with faith are not free of fear, but often are filled with fear because they build false faith to avoid the fear which they then fear will destroy their faith. They fear their faith is not enough so they create more systems of faith--but to no avail. Faith that is not a function of fear overcome is no faith." (1/6/97 - R#11)

"This is about love. There is nothing you can do to earn it and there is nothing you can do to lose it. Love to the universe is like air to the physical body. It is life. It is the sustaining force and the element that infuses and animates all there is. If you exist you are loved. It has nothing to do with who you are. It has to do with what you experienced and how you were treated by others. It has to do with trust, and trust is fragile and easily broken. You can relearn it but it takes work and openness to the love of the universe.

"My wish for you is that you may be able to feel that love as the continuing background to your life--kind of like a soundtrack. A lovetrack, if you will. Listen to it. Hearing it will help you let go and the trust will grow from it, as a theme reveals itself in a symphony. At first all you hear is individual notes, but as the piece develops the notes form a pattern and you begin to hear a wholeness that you can remember--that can become part of your being and your memory and is always available to you to recall and relive. It becomes your own.

"So it is with love and trust. It takes some listening, some hearing, and a lot of remembering. Focus on those things and you will be rewarded with peace of mind and a sense of spiritual continuity and a deeper wisdom. It will help you understand the abundance of life and allow you to live wholly and purposefully and, yes, even joyfully. Listen to the love and hear your purpose and possibilities and persistence. Love is what binds us each to the other, and it is not dependent on time or space or behavior." (4/6/97 - R#12)

Listen to Rikkity when she was 6 years old singing about love.

"This is about relationships. There is nothing more frustrating or more glorious than the relationship between two people. It is fundamental to life and to growth. Life is relationship. Energy flows naturally between two points. If it stays static it turns in on itself and self-destructs. There is nothing that is static in the universe because nothing that is static lasts.

"Growth is about the flow of energy. It goes out in one direction and comes back more than it was before. What comes back the same has no effect, and so it is not even noticed. Relationships like that have no effect on a person because they don't add anything to the person's life. There must be difference, there must be change, there must be newness in order for there to be growth.

"In relationships what stays static shrivels and dies. If you try to hold onto your energy and not let it flow between you and the other it will eventually dissipate. You will eventually lose it. If you don't let it go it cannot come back to you. That old saying about 'if you love something, let it go' is so right! But the corollary to that is that if you don't let it go you will lose it.

"The effort of putting out the energy is what sustains life, and without it winter would not turn to spring and pain would not produce growth and what is destroyed by natural disaster would remain barren. The rain would not produce rainbows if the sun didn't make the effort to shine through it. In the end you really have no choice anyway. If you love you give. And if you give you are given in return.

"Energy is a precious commodity but it is not rare or something you need to 'get.' It is the essence of life, and you will always have enough as long as you use it with love and for good. Use it in anger or doubt or despair or hatred and you will never have what you need. Use it in love and care and creativity and belief and you will always have what you need because you will always be nourished and sustained by it. Energy used for positive purposes will feed you. Energy used in negative ways will suck from you. It's always a two-way street and you always have a choice.

"Stay positive, stay whole, stay on your own course and you will not get lost. Look here for your guides but look there for your companions. Keep your eyes on the stars, but your arms around each other." (5/15/97 - R#13)

"A few thoughts for today about energy. It is true that we can energize others, and we need to be careful and discriminating about how and where to send our energy. Black holes can suck us dry, but if we retreat and send none then those in need will be left bereft. So it's almost like electricity. If you take a wire with electricity from your home and touch it to ground it will let vast quantities of energy flow into the earth (and you'll get a big bill) until all your resources are gone... bye-bye, sayonara, ta-ta, brokeski. But if you put a fuse on the line, that can't happen. But it also means any contact with earth will cut the circuit. With some situations you need a fuse; if the energy flow is too much just shut down. But in most cases you have an option: put something between you and ground that will use the energy to good effect. When you turn on a light that's what you do.

"So, between people you need to establish what will be energized; and it won't be them, but something between you and them. And it has to be of sufficient load that it uses the energy before it gets through to them. All good relationships have this feature--that what flows creates something between the two appropriate to the intensity and power of what goes in. You can't light a regular bulb with a C-cell, and if you try to light the same bulb with a high-tension line, POOF. The relationship and the energy need to be in an equal relationship.

"Fuses keep you from giving too much, and even receiving too much; and they also serve to keep you from amassing too many little relationships whose sum total exceeds your capacity to give or deal with. Fuses are the boundaries we choose in relationships. Without them we are either fried or enervated. There is no one standard of emotional fuses. Each relationship requires its own ongoing calculation. If you fear black holes you will create inappropriate fuses. Life is about using and controlling energy, not about abusing or denying it. That's all." (11/17/97 - R#14)

"Now about Saddam Hussein. Take the guy out to lunch at the Yale Club. That's enough. Stop making him into a villain and a martyr. Be good to his people and undermine him. Focus on them, not him. They aren't bad. He can't preach about their oppression if they ain't oppressed." (12/16/97 - R#15)

"Think of it like this: You have one wastebasket, and when you look in you see there is some trash and also some garbage. So you yell, 'Who put this garbage in here.' But wait... the can is not labeled. But if it were labeled 'Trash, No Garbage' then probably you would get only trash. And if you got garbage you would have no trouble dealing with it, and the offender.' " (5/13/98 - R#16)

"One thing about Korea and Vietnam is that we have generally let go of it; but WWII we had to keep hearing about. It was because it so focused on negative energies, and those people are still feeding it. They don't know any positive direction that is as compelling. And they got their rewards in the '50s from surviving the '40s. And now we have to hear it all here... but not for long." (5/16/98 - R#17)

"Question: 'Evil: Systemic quality or situational reality? I can't tell from the great and mighty Rikkity which it is.'

"What appears as a continuity of evil is not. It is not a force. It is the situational occurrence of unstable combinations of spiritual energy. It comes and goes. There are few examples of specific atrocities that are the same. People are as inventive with bad as they are with creativity. If there were a continuity of evil it would be the same... not, as it is said, 'rearing its ugly head' in new and pernicious ways. But there appears to be similarity because in the human sphere there are only so many ways that energy sucking seems to manifest itself. So now we use guns and then we used arrows, but both were used to compensate for a feeling of intense need for energy and power.

"It is actually the opposite. If we think of evil as systemic then we spend and focus energy on something that is not real, and that is a form of evil itself. To use energy that could be positive to fill the energy needs of a phantom energy drain is to waste goodness. Let me be specific: Crusades. There was no evil in the Holy Land. Islam is not evil--no more evil than any religion that has grown beyond its spiritual foundation, but it was not specifically evil. But the Crusades spent a lot of energy against supposed evil, and all the energy was wasted with death and suffering while at home people starved. To treat situational badness as evil is as bad as ignoring the situational badness. Both refocus energy in less than good ways. If energy is not focused on connection and connecting it is no better than what it seeks to address." (7/2/98 - R#18)

"Fuses all look different. It could be people, or distance, or a setting, or even tranquilizers... whatever stops an undue amount of energy flowing from you without the fuse also taking energy. That's the key. Some people use another person as a fuse between them and another, but that fuse takes as much energy or more. Substitute holes are not fuses. It's not about stopping wasteful energy flow to a certain place, but about stopping it altogether. Got it. It's controlling the energy without using any itself.

"I give another example. You have a pesky acquaintance and she will suck you dry; so you decide to see her only in social settings--that is, not one-on-one. But if the others who fill out the scene demand energy they are not fuses. So, suppose someone else can shut her up but that other needs a lot of attention. What's the difference. Switches change energy direction; fuses protect your spiritual circuits. You can get just as fried by a short circuit to a water pipe as you can to a shit pile. Just because it's pure water doesn't mean the pipe can't suck your energy as much as the shit, ok." (9/29/98 - R#19)

Questions and answers at a chat session:

"So if there is no evil and love is all there is, what should we do with people who seem bent on hurting or taking advantage of us? That is such a problem for so many people. You think if you're strong and loving that means you have to give, even to those who don't give in return, even to those who give only pain in return. Try to remember that your choices will not make or break someone else. Try to remember that you can, and really must, focus your energy where it will be helpful and creative and loving. But you don't need to focus your energy on feeding those who don't love you back. Give them understanding if you want to, but don't give them your energy to feed on. That will only sustain their need and not fill it. To fill it they must find ways to create their own energy." (11/1/98 - R#20)

"What about loving our enemies? Loving your enemies does not mean feeding them and making it possible for them to go on hurting you! Loving your enemies simply means acknowledging them as fellow human beings who are on a journey of their own. It means not making them into more than they are. Got it? Ok, good. And with that I gotta go. Goodbye." (11/1/98 - R#21)

"It's about give and take. Someone took my bench, but I gave a new one; so some things you can replace but some you can't. So give and take only works with replaceables or infinites, but often we treat one like the other; so we withhold an infinite when someone takes and doesn't give back a finite. Sister borrows a bowl and never returns it and we withhold our love. What a bummer. We treat an infinite like a finite. More later. Film at 11. And remember, a circle cannot have two centers. Goodbye." (2/28/99 - R#22)

At a Serendipity Night chat session:

"Hey guys, what's up? Ok, let's get a little serious because what I have to say is serious and extremely profound, ha. This is about give and take and going with the flow, as you were chatting about earlier.

"Give and take is something that is often misunderstood. We think in terms of giving finite things to each other, such as gifts or anything that is physical, and we get confused between that which is finite and that which is infinite. Let me explain. I never was a great Beatles fan, but when they said 'money can't buy me love' they were on the right track, and here's why: There is no flow to the finite. What is finite is meant to go from one place to another, or from one person to another, and then stop. It is not meant to keep going, because if it did we would get really annoyed! Did you ever have a letter come back to you unopened? Then you understand what I mean.

"The infinite is what is meant to flow between us and through us and around us, and it is not meant to be stopped in one place or with one person or idea or thought. The infinite is things like love and caring and respect and compassion and dignity and service. So when we speak of give and take, we must be careful to remember this. When your sister borrows a bowl from you and doesn't return it, you might get angry, you might get upset, you might feel used and disrespected. But think about it: it's a bowl, it's a finite thing that can be replaced. And when you make something finite the measure of what you will give of the infinite you short circuit the whole process. The infinite is meant to flow, the finite is not.

"If you give someone a finite gift you don't expect it back and you don't get it back, but if you give someone love and care and compassion and trust, you not only give it but you become an agent in the infinite flow of the universe and it comes back to you in ways you don't control or even imagine. Now, if you withhold that love and care, you not only do not send it out to someone else, but you create a 'jam' in the system and you don't allow the flow to happen. You will, in the long run, diminish your own returns. Trust in that flow and do not withhold what is not yours to begin with--for none of us owns the infinite although we are all participants in it--and you will begin to understand what Jesus meant when he said, 'love thy neighbor as thyself.' It's not through the finite that love is found, but in the infinite gifts that we all give and take. Learn to know the difference, and you will find more love and more hope and more fulfillment. Life is abundant, but what is finite is not. Focus on that which is limited and you will limit your own vision and your own receiving. So, chew on that for a while, and I will be back again soon. I love you all and wish you all the gifts of the universe and the companionship of each other. Goodnight!" (2/28/99 - R#23)

"Faith is not a wall, but a flow. And faith is not about the destination, but about the trip. You always have faith, but is that faith one that helps you find your way or keeps you from finding it. You could have faith in evil, but that faith would not sustain or enliven. Faith is always best when it encompasses positive energy flow.

"Here's an example. Faith says God is love, such love is surrounding you always... good. But if the faith had an obligation of obedience that one must give... o no, it becomes a negative energy flow. Not going to learn and grow from that. Faith should always focus on what is becoming, not what already is. Our failures already are, but our living beyond them is not yet. Got it. It is known, but not yet lived. You can't have faith beyond your capacity to perceive and envision, so it is already known. Ideals beyond your ken are as madness to your being.

"So for my friend VD, her faith was an object to others, and in her defense of it she objectified it also. Then when she needed a way, a path, a road in unknown territory, all she had was a narrow worn object which did not sustain and which she eventually gave up; until one day, as she lived and thrived again, she sensed faith in and with her as part of her being--not an object apart from herself. Whenever anyone must defend her or his faith, there is the great danger that the defense of that faith will objectify and lessen and destroy that faith. Enough!" (3/6/99 - R#24)

"This is about a candelabra. Seven candles: ROYGBIV. And light is not light with any one missing or obscured. This is going to be gross, but hang in there. The candles grow in layers of experience, like ear wax grows in layers in your ears. And different phases and different spectra of life gives you different tints to your ear wax. Spend a week in a goldenrod meadow and it's yellow; in lavender country, blue. Just like life--joy, yes; sorrow, yes; anger, yes; love, yes--these kind of different colors of life. Think what 7 elements of life's experience you would name your 7 candles. It's an exercise.

"And here's a trick: You can make light from 7 very different colors, but they need not be the same 7 different colors; but they do need to have variety and diversity. If someone were to name three greed, avarice, and desire, those green candles would create a green envious light. Or if you had rage, power, anger, then the red part of the spectrum would dominate. You need a rainbow, but not everyone will have the same intensity and size of each color. And that's all I will say, blech.

"And remember this. A candle without a wick--a candle that cannot be kindled with the risk of some of it being consumed and made into light for others--is not a candle, it's just a lump of ear wax. One transforms the stuff of life into meaning and light, and the other is just residue. Action, sharing, openness, daring, risking, loving, connecting. An unlit candle connects to no one. It's an artifact, a residue--not a beacon, a hope, a flame of love. Hey, if all the helium in the sun just sat there and didn't burn, Earth would be damned dead--or, for the faint of language, darned dead. I go, and that's no excrement." (4/25/99 - R#25)

"About the Columbine shootings. O, don't make more of it than 2 stupid, crazy, lonely people. It is not symbolic of anything larger, and those who use it for such do violence themselves.

"It is so easy to focus on the negative that we let it win. Gandhi knew this and believed that he could change the negative by never ever ever being negative. So, when he was beaten he did not beat back nor did he cower. Both would have let the negative win. Only the positive can triumph over the negative and in its wake bring forth the dawn of... wait, that's the campaign speech. But you get the point. Eye on the prize. He was not passive when he peacefully sat down, knowing he would be beaten. That's not passive; slinking home would have been. He was not passive, he was assertive--positively assertive. And here's a test. In any situation, do the people act out of fear or faith. And I don't mean a fearfull faith, I mean an empowering one. That's all you need to know to know which way the wind is blowing." (6/10/99 - R#26)

"Now about the death penalty. Kill the suckers... no, that wasn't it. Mercy and understanding, and let the process take its eternal course. It's more about how people feel about life than it is about death. And in times when people don't really appreciate life, they use death as a means of escape. Bad times always bring about killings. The killings are a symptom, not the real badness. When a group needs to kill it usually has an incomplete identity of itself. Negative images breed negative actions.

"When we cut short the lives and learnings of people we may be prolonging the process of their spiritual evolution. With the really evil black holes, no; but with the infinite number of guiltless ones, we do--and that holds us back, too. A life in prison could be a life of learning and remembering, but a life cut short like that can't always be. And that's all I will say before I say 'hug.' " (7/1/99 - R#27)

"Hey, never trust anyone who is always up. That's a sign of an energy sucker--use it before you even have it. Not what logic would tell, but the mellow folks have their own internal energy... like wow. And that's all I have to say, man." (11/2/99 - R#28)

"Specific fears have an appeal in a time of uncertain fears. Hell had the biggest play when life was uncertain but no one knew from what. Just as the Enlightenment pulled away the veil of superstition and fears were made specific but not uncertain, now again veils need to be pulled off to show realities--which are always less frightening than suppositions and mysteries.

"The cult of technology, when it is held in the clench of nerds, creates an uncertain in the rest of us. So only as the 'secrets' of it all are shared without lingo... and also without lingonberries, yum... will we find a way out of the uncertainties; but the nerds hold on tightly because they feel so outside the culture. They like the feeling of superiority they get by keeping everyone else uncertain; and what do the idiots do, they sue Gates and prove he is besieged, and this will work against what should happen. Threaten a technogeek and you get more secrets, not fewer. It has to be a mutual handshake. And most common people are as scared of the technos as they once were of the medieval priest. So I invite in the geeks and say they are socially accepted, and then they will share and the fears will diminish. Circles of openness.

"So, Y2K was about all of this. So the next time someone fails to program a VCR, they should not curse the VCR or the designers, but call up one of those who know and ask for help and invite him or her over for dinner and a VCR party. The future of the class struggle will not be economic but technological, and it is not about possessing the objects but about understanding the principles. Them that's gots the info are top dogs... and the rest of you make fun of them. Remember Peggy Sue Got Married and Richard. She opened to him and he opened to her and fears dissipated, but all the rest stayed in fear. One of the smarts and one of the in-crowd. So ponder that.

"And let me say it again. Once we had tribal war, then racial, then national... and always class. But the coming conflict is about ideas and knowledge supported by technology. If you want to make a difference, focus on that. Give an African American or a Hispanic access to knowledge and technology, and race won't mean shit... oops I mean beans. And, in the coming period, focusing on race or economics will be a handy way to avoid the issues and keep the whole struggle alive with top dogs and fear... or is it hot dogs and beer... no, top dogs and fear." (1/3/2000 - R#29)

"Holding other things in terror is a way of not letting go of what is no longer needed. Addictions are often about holding on to the drugs or booze to avoid having to let go of other things: 'I will lose myself but keep these things of the past.' Ironically tragic. Ponder that... and have a drink.

"We become hooked or fixated on 'this' to avoid the potential loss of 'that.' This is replacement therapy to put us back in right relation to what we have displaced. Replacement is not about substitution, but about restoring a position of relationship--re-placing. And it would not matter so much if we had not been placed before. New territory is always easier, if even scarier, than old territory avoided. Ponder that, too." (6/20/2000 - R#30)

"Now about racism and addiction. All dysfunction is about energy, and chronic dysfunction is addiction to some form of energy--hate, booze, drugs, violence, religion, and sports... not to mention dogs... rrrrr. It could be anything external to one. Some are addicted to running and some are addicted to sunning... music, cigarettes, fruit punch, peanut butter, applause, quiet. The substance doesn't matter as much, but some also have a physical claim as well." (8/9/2000 - R#31)

"Can't have a rainbow without a clash of water and light. Is it violence or creativity. Ponder that. All physical matter is the product of either thought or violence... hmmm. So, I go... he goes... we go." (11/21/2000 - R#32)

"So, pay attention. Energy released by change is a big problem. And moving on into more complexity is a big change; and so there is a lot... a shitload... of energy potential in the change, and the sensation of that keeps some peeps from changing. The final awareness for many before they connect is how to deal with such tremendous shared energy. You think fear is a big deal, try not understood energy!

"So, keep on pondering the energy. It has been my most constant theme. It's all about energy. In any sustainable entity the control and use of energy is an essential issue. And without a balance, then you either get explosions outward--a coming apart--or inward, like a black hole... suuuuck. That's all for tonight. I haven't got energy to go on." (1/17/2001 - R#33)

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